In love with my Bestfriend/fwb

Hello, Im pretty sure that everyone has heard about the girl who falls in love with her best friend. I often look at other people situations to get a better understanding of my own. But i havn't seen anyone else situation that seems like mine. So i decided to post  my own for advice that i really need.
It started off as the first and biggest crush on a boy that i have ever had in the 7th grade ( and havn't til this day) i made the mistake and told some other girls that i like him and they for lack of a better word embarrassed me and him every chance they could.  He shyed away from me. 8th grade the kids still picked on me and him because (I)liked him but towards the end of the school year he asked me to go with him... I was the happiest girl in the world. We had fun. School ended. During the summer before highschool we sorta lost contact. When we did speak it was short and dry convos.

Highschool... We went to the same highschool. First day of highschool when i saw him he was acting really wierd and standoffish. After another week or so i had a friend break up with him for me. He went on to date a few other girls and fell in love with a girl in about 11th grade. I did the same i met someone who i was very much in love with . During this time lets call him Drake. Drake and i talked sporadically nothing major. I still had a huge crush though.

College - Yes you guessed it we went to College together too. Freshman year.Drake was still with the girl he fell in love with in highschool.. but she lived in the city about 30 mins away from our university (he didnt have a car). I was still with my boyfriend whom i fell for in highs school too who went away to school in another state very far. We were both for the first time spending time together alone and we bonded in my doorm and or his. After about a month or so a sexual tension began to build.  Some nights he would come over and we talk and laugh the entire night and then we would start to kiss and get " touchy"  this happend alot.. but like i said were BOTH still in realtionships. One night we got extremely close to doing it ( he was a virgin by the way but i wasnt) and he stopped and just left my doorm. We barely seen eachother for about 5-6 months. I would have done it. But i understood why we couldnt be around eachother that much i didnt press the issue. I just focused on doing right by my bf like i know he was too..