Jen and I talked for a while today. She's going through some things too. I think it really helped us both to be able to talk about the other's problems - as well as our own. It felt good to just sit with a friend and talk and laugh - and cry (we both did some of that).
So, I left her place and went and applied for a part time job. We'll see what happens - I'd love to have that turn into something. First, I could use the money. Second, I could use the distraction. Third, I just think I need to make a change, to shake my routine up a bit. This could do that for me, while serving the other purposes at the same time.
After that, I went to the mall and got myself dinner and bought a ticket to go to a movie. I sat down, and looked up. Who do I see? The photographer from my wedding. Are you kidding me? I just wanted an evening without reminders of all the ways that I've failed. While I'm still reeling from that - Jen texts me. Our mutual friend, who I used to date (he was my transitional guy after my marriage) is engaged. To the girl he broke up with me to date. Oy.