Now throw in the marriage that has underwent its own changes over the years. From my understanding it is usually a pretty good relationship, but it has become very relaxed. It pretty much runs itself with daily habits, and limited conversation, and it becomes so much of the same thing every day that the little things that we used to enjoy so much, just seem, mundane! I think that is the word I'm looking for. Thoughts of the past haunt your mind, and you long for that happiness again. You love your husband, there's no doubt about that, but where's the sizzle, where's the spark? We rummage through a thousand thoughts of how to get back to where we were, or to make it better than it ever has been before.
It's like being trapped in your own mind, and not being able to stop all the thoughts that come crashing in on you all at once. I hope this doesn't mean that we all lose our minds during this phase in our lives. I like to think I'm not losing it, I'm reorganizing my priorities. That any woman going threw this tough time can get threw it with enough support, and yes, some space to think it out on her own, will over come this trying adventure of the mind with time. Not only will she over come it, but she will come out the other side a better version of her previous self.