I think it's because I feel I have nothing or no one. Probably because I really love sex. I don't know. Once I'm with this guy it's like man he really knows how to get to me. How to really make me happy. I think it's just lust. Am I really so dumb that I'm willing to put myself in danger of more STD's? Why do I do the things I do? My life really sucks right now.
I need to start saying no. Once I do that I should be okay, right? Maybe I am just a freak. I would tell myself that I will stop. This guy he really knows how to please me. I should not have told him, better yet, moan too much. What am I going to do? I should stick to masturbating, really.