Today I feel I'm losing my mind

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Today I feel I'm losing my mind

Dear Dr. Romance:

Today I feel I'm losing my mind.

I'm in my mid-forties, from an upper class family. A few years ago, my father passed away suddenly, and at the same time I was  separated from my husband. Several months  after my Dad died I was divorced. No children. I  wanted the divorce. Two years later,I met my current boyfriend. He is a racial mix of black white and  a little Native American. Our relationship was very rocky the first year. Now things are better with us but my Mother is making me feel  terrible because of the racial differences and she utilizes every opportunity to scare me. She says that if I marry him and we have a child, it will be a black child no matter what; even if it looks white white white it will STILL be black, and she will feel sorry for the child, and that child will never fit in anywhere, and I am being selfish. On top of this, I'm still not sure my boyfriend is right for me. I love him and care about him but am not sure anymore if I want to marry him. He  has rented out his condo and is now living with me so I feel "stuck."

I'm also feeling guilty for divorcing my ex-husband. He and I are very good friends; we almost have a sibling-type relationship. I am more comfortable with him then with my boyfriend  and he is much easier to get along with then my boyfriend. But my marriage was passionless (on his part) and we had many financial difficulties.

The reason I'm writing to you is I give up on trying to come to a decision on my own. It seems that ever since my Dad died I have not made one good decision; actually I haven't made any decisions, I seem to just let life happen. I'm out  of control.  I think I need to find a therapist who knows the  difficulties of interracial relationships.

Dear Reader:

I'm glad you're seeking counseling -- it's important for you to know your own mind before you make any more important decisions.  Sex feels great, I know, but it is definitely not enough to carry a relationship.  Your mother's concern is partly bigotry, and partly truth.  Depending on your community's standards, and the racial mix there, your children may indeed feel isolated and experience problems.  In a racially mixed community, they would probably fit right in. 

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