There is a guy..
By verquick. Posted on .
So there is this guy that I'm crazy about. I met him last year. We went on a road trip together, and really got to know one another. He really wanted to date me, but I was leaving. At the time I was living in Reno, NV, I was heading to VA, then off to TX to start a new job. This guy is 29 and has never had a girlfriend. He's been through a lot in his life, medical issues and personal issues. When I was in Reno we had sex a few times. At the time I wasn't really that into him. Well I can't say that, I thought he was a great guy, I just thought he would be fun to have a fling with. I really didn't think I would develop feelings for him. Since then I've seen him once, and we had amazing sex. It's not just the sex though. We have a lot of chemistry. He really is a great guy. I talk to him all the time. As I get to know him more I fall for him more and more.
He just started a truck driving job and is driving all over the country. He said that he's going to be real lonely doing this job. Which I can totally understand. I've told him that he can call me whenever he needs someone to talk to. I know he will call, I seem to be one of the only people that truly cares about him. I really want this man to be my boyfriend. The problem is when I've said things to him about how I feel, he tells me not to talk about it. He said that he likes me a lot, but talking about it is a no fly zone over his heart. He says this because he's been hurt a lot throughout his life. I can totally understand and respect this, but he has to realize that just because I don't talk about how I feel, doesn't mean the feelings are no longer there. Right now I'm going to be his friend, keep him company during this transition in his life. I hope that being his friend through all of this will win me "brownie points." It's hard for me though. I don't want to get hurt by this man, however I'm putting myself out there. I want him to know that I'm a good person and I have a big heart. I also want him to know that I care about him, and that I'm crazy about him. Even though he knows how I feel he keeps asking me if I have a boyfriend or if I've found a boy toy. Not sure if he's just testing me or what. See the thing is I don't really want a relationship with anyone else. When I met this guy I didn't want a relationship, however since I've gotten to know him, I want him.




