is this the end of the line?

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is this the end of the line?

first of all, i'm a newbie so have patience if i'm not going about this correctly :) but thanks, any insight would be greatly appreciated :) cheers!

Background....
we met at work 2007 with both of us in serious committed relationships
both seperate relationships deteriated around the same time
Nov 2008, we begin to see each other - it was wonderful, enjoying each others company, it was full of passion, it had alot of promise
Jan 2009, she breaks up with me to return to her ex boyfriend.  I was most definatly hurt but i understood as she has a child with him and wanted to give it another chance- for her childs sake
--this ex was a complete ass, he was constantly rude towards her, embarassed her in public, was abusive and constantly screaming at her--

her returning to ex lasted 3 weeks and she moved back out. we never spoke for 3 months despite constant efforts on her part. 

The Love Story ...

May 2009 i pay her a surprise visit on her birthday.  we have a good chat for a while then on my way out the door we hug good bye.  hug turns to small kiss small kiss turns to big kiss, big kiss turns to well you know, some oh my god i've missed you up against the fridge ;)

well we start to hang out a bit, nothing serious, then as the summer approaches we are spendng weekends together, ussually her coming up to my house as i live in cottage country surrounded by tree's and lakes so its really quite nice and relaxing.  at this point ussually once a week she's telling me she misses me and wants to be with me but i am still  pushing her away, enjoying being single and more so still a little hurt from last january.  i keep telling her that i'm not ready to commit as i wasn't and we were both appreciative of the fact we could be honest with each other.  she told me should would wait for me, until I was ready as I was the one she wanted and she would wait as long as it took.

July goes by and we are going to concerts and having alot of fun, August comes and we are at a Nickleback concert and we run into an old gf of mine. well she comes and talks and then shit hits the fan cause we got jealousy all over the map.  the way home she appolagises and honestly pushed me away a little bit

August, I am feeling depressed as I am alone, watching some chick flick on TV and thinking that I would never find that love, that maybe it just wasn't meant to be.  I had my chance, I was married, had children and lost it all.  ( my ex wife is a full blown alcoholic which ultimatly was the destruction of our marrage )

I sat on my elevated deck outside my house over looking the tree's as i do each morning drinking my coffee and I begin to think. 
Maybe I am being blind to the fact, maybe all along i wish for this so called fairy tale love and its been sitting right in front of my eyes with this girl .. here is this girl who i honestly do care for when i think about it, she cares for me and she has been waiting months for me to get my shit together.  seriously like months.  we have an amazing time everytime we are together, so what am i doing? 
I decide thats the case and here is this wonderful girl right before my eyes and I dont want to risk the chance of losing that.

August - we become official :)

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