I keep asking myself why I continue to put myself through this cycle. It's been nearly a year since my last divorce (yes, LAST divorce, if I have anything to say about it...and I do) and it's time to get out there again. I guess the first question is ... what do I really want?
Well, I'm over 40 so I am totally done with the breeding game. Love my three kids but very glad my youngest is a junior in high school and has plans to go out of town for college. I know everyone says they are attractive but I've seen other women my age. I'm still a size 6; Fairly fit; don't have any wrinkles or stretch marks and just started dyeing my hair for the few greys that are creeping in...and I'm still...dare I say it....kinda hot. I have a good job. I have great female friends. I'm reasonably well-adjusted and independent. And have more than a few neurons still snapping so I'd think I'd be a prime candidate that would interest a guy.
Unfortunately, the men my age seem to be hiding out. Or the attractive, successful ones want a woman ten to twenty years younger. Pretty much decided I'm not doing much older than me. I do not want to patrol the nursing homes looking for male companionship and I still want sex without the aid of Viagra. Call me old-fashioned.
The new trend for women my age is young...really young it seems. So, do I really have what it takes to do the "Mrs. Robinson" thing? According to my 24 year old daughter, some of her co-workers have expressed some interest. I still can't believe she actually brought up the subject, but we have a pretty open, honest relationship. But, I'm not really feeling it. Suppose I'd better keep the younger option open. We'll see what happens.