IN A PICKLE !!!!!!

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IN A PICKLE !!!!!!

OK SO I MEET THIS GUY JUST OVER A YEAR AGO AND THINGS WERE GREAT AS MOST RELATIONSHIPS ARE IN THE BEGINING ! HE HAS 4 CHILDREN AGES YOUNGEST TO OLDEST 9,19,25 AND 30.AND AT FIRST THIS WAS NOT A PROBLEM. YOU SEE HE WORKS OUT OF STATE ALOT ! AND IS GONE FOR WEEKS AT A TIME AND THAT REALLY IS NOT TO BIG OF AN ISSUE. THE REAL ISSUE IS THAT WHEN HE IS HOME WE HAVE HIS YOUNGEST THE WHOLE TIME AND WHEN I SAY THE WHOLE TIME I MEAN THE WHOLE TIME. HE WILL BE HOME LESS THAN 24 HOURS AND HE GOES AND PICKS HIM UP,WE HAVE TALKED ABOUT IT (DID THE EVERY OTHER WEEKEND THING FOR LIKE 2 WEEKENDS AND POOF I DON'T REALLY KNOW WHAT HAPPENED THAT IT STOPPED BUT IT DID CAUSE WE ARE BACK TO ALL THE TIME) AND IT IS NOT THAT I DO NOT WANT HIM TO SEE HIS SON.I WOULD JUST LIKE MORE THAN 24 HOURS WITH HIM SINCE HE IS GONE FOR SO LONG. I MEAN IT IS NOT LIKE HIS SON LIVES OUT OF TOWN,HE LIVES LESS THAN 10 MILES FROM US. AND YES MY 15 YEAR OLD IS HOME ALL THE TIME. BUT HE WILL GO AND STAY SOMEWHERE FOR A DAY OR 2. CAUSE HE *EVEN AT 15* KNOWS HOW IMPORTANT TIME ALONE IS AND I DON'T EVEN HAVE TO ASK HE JUST SAYS MOM GOING TO GRANDMAS FOR A DAY OR TO SO YOU GUYS CAN BE ALONE SOME .SO I AM AT A LOSS WITH THIS ONE.I RESPECT THAT HE DOES SEE HIS KIDS AND NOT LIKE MOST DIVORCED GUYS JUST BLOWS OFF THEIR KIDS !!!
BUT MY BIGGEST ISSUE IS THAT NOT LONG AGO WE GET A CALL IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT THAT WE HAVE TO GO AND PICK UP HIS 19 YEAR OLD WHO WAS DRUNK AS HELL AND OMG!!!! RETARTED !!!!!! SO WE AGREED THAT HE COULD STAY BUT UNDER THE RULES OF THE HOUSE AND ALSO HE HAD TO STOP DRINKING AND STOP SMOKING DOPE !!! WELL HE STILL DOES BOTH. THE REASON I DON'T WANT HIM TO DO THOSE THINGS IS THAT 15 YEAR OLDS LIKE TO FOLLOW THE OLDER GUYS WHEN ALLOWED WELL I DON'T NEED THAT ! AND ANY MOTHER WOULD FEEL THE SAME. ALSO HE HAS ON SEVERAL OCCASIONS DRANK AND HAD DOPE ON HIM WHILE RIDING IN MY SONS VEHICLE WITH MY SON DRIVING.AND THAT REALLY PISSES ME OFF!!!!! I FEEL THAT SHOWS NO REPSECT FOR OTHERS.OK NOW FOR THE JUICY PART!!!! OUR SEX LIFE OR LACK THERE OF ! WHEN HE IS HOE WE HAVE SEX LIKE AMYBE 1 OR 2 TIMES MAYBE 3 TIMES AND FOR ME THAT IS SO NOT NEARLY ENOUGH. i WOULD LIKE TO HAVE SEX EVERY NIGHT THAT HE IS IN AND I TOLD HIM THIS AND HE JUST LAUGHED AND STATED I SHOULD DATE A YOUNGER MAN ! AND MY REPLY WAS MAYBE I SHOULD FIND ONE THAT IS JUST MORE INTO ME !!!! AND IT IS NOT THAT WE ARE 2 UNATTRACTIVE PEOPLE CAUSE THE TRUTH IS WE ARE BOTH NICE LOOKING PEOPLE FOR OUR AGES ! I AM A PETITE WOMAN, A NATURAL RED HEAD WITH GREEN EYES AND I HAVE A GREAT PERSONALITY!! HE IS KINDA TALL WITH A NICE MUSCULAR BUILD AND SALT & PEPPER HAIR WITH BLUE EYES! AND HIS PERSONALITY IS GOOD TOO.BUT REGARDLESS OF THESE THINGS I THINK THAT IF A RELATIONSHIP GOES COLD BEFORE A YEAR THEN REALLY IS IT WORTH THE TRY ?ALONG WITH THE OTHER ISSUES. I REALLY THINK NOT ! AND TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH I DO WANT TO END THIS RIGHT NOW BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO. HE IS AT WORK AND I REALLY DON'T WANT TO TELL HIM OVER THE PHONE.DUE TO THE FACT THE HE HAS A HIGH RISK JOB AND IT REALLY IS NOT COOL DO THAT OVER THE PHONE ANYWAY.BUT I AM NOT SURE WHEN HE WILL BE HOME AND FEEL THAT I AM WASTING MY TIME. AND HIS AS WELL. ANY ADVICE ON THIS WOULD BE NICE !!