I hope you find it...

I hope you find it...

Is it better to have loved and then lost, or to have never loved at
all? Man, have I heard that too many times. If someone actually asked
me that question, I don't think I'd even know how to answer it. Have
you ever been so in love with someone, that it actually hurt? Like it
felt like a hole in your chest? Well, I've felt that. Only now, that
"love" was pretty much ripped away, and now the hole is empty. I
honestly thought I would do anything in the world to get him back,
because I thought I could change him. I tried and tried, for weeks, and
on to months. You can't change a man; he can only change if he wants
to change. I put my heart on the line, told him everything...how I
felt, what I wanted...a million times over...yet it still wasn't
enough. What is enough? What do men really want? Sex?
Money? A trophy wife? Obviously it's not love that they want. I mean,
I'm not perfect, but I would consider myself to be a really good
girlfriend. Why can't they see that? Why can't he see that? I
thought he would be perfect for me. I guess I thought wrong. I loved
everything about him. I tried everything in my power to get over him. I
can't date anyone else right now. I can't even think straight. I don't
want to put this burden upon some unsuspecting individual...it wouldn't
be fair to them. I guess I need to begin recovery. Maybe I'm just being
dramatic. But I really do feel numb. I've only been in love twice.
Maybe I was wrong about the first one, too. Maybe I was wrong about
everything. Maybe I just need to give up. I think that would be my best
bet. I need to wipe all of my memories of him, us. It just sucks when
you think you've finally found what's right, and it ends up being all
wrong. What I felt for him was different. It was strong and real, and
passionate. I can't be friends with him. I cut all ties. It's done. If
I ever see you again, I'll just smile and wave, and keep walking. I
hope you find what you're looking for, and I'm sorry you didn't find it
in me.


Expert advice

If you can recognize this pattern, you can handle your favorite narcissist more effectively.
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