I Was A Celibate Stripper
A former stripper's tale of love, sex and celibacy.
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Two days later I boarded a plane for the Midwest. In Michigan, I went to a treatment facility for drug and alcohol abuse. It was tough leaving Kiersten behind, but the only way I knew to get rid of her was to abruptly cut her off.
When I was a dancer, Ryan's unavailability was perfect for me. He would string me along on vague promises, but the burden was taken off me entirely. I was saving myself for someone who would never come through. On some level I didn't really want him to. This arrangement was the safest one I could manage to counterbalance the self destructive, intrusive world of showing my body to men for money. The last time I spoke to Ryan on the phone, he'd been in a horrible car accident. He was in coma for almost a month. When we spoke, his voice was barely above a whisper from his emergency tracheotomy. The man I wanted to take care of me for so many years was no longer capable of looking after himself.
After a decade of celibacy, I finally slept with a man whom I met via the internet and was 23 years sober in AA. As I lay with him in the dark, I felt vulnerable. His approval was much more important to me than any of the guys I used to dance for. Being sober, it was a lot scarier to take off my clothes for one man than hundreds.
Discussion
I love this story , it is a perfect reflection of the virgin/ whore complex that is forced on women. No matter how much you strive through education, politics or just by being a good person. Women are still judged harshly by how hot we make a man feel in his pants. This society props up Kim Kardashian, Paris Hilton and "The Girls Next Door" by giving them reality shows, clothing lines, etc. Then the media puts down, Hilary Clinton and Condi Rice for not showing more skin or having hair extensions. We live in a society that promotes women to be sex objects, but not to enjoy sex. Kiersten is, what society and the media want to turn all women in to. How is it fair that in this day and age with all that women have worked so hard for, that we still make more money naked than with a degree? The ending of the story is perfect. It shows that once you wake up and find yourself, you dont need any one else. Through out the story Kierston, could only depend on herself what messed her up was trying to be rescued. As a woman I can relate. We may kid ourselves and think because we are not looking for "daddy " and stripping we can't relate to Kierston. How many of us are using designer bags, clothes, expensive make up and other things that ruin our credit score to make us feel better?
Wow, Kiersten is "fearless" and 'can handle anything" eh?? But she has to take downers to perform on stage... Okay, sure... whatever.
Also, what does a dancer's sex life (or lack thereof) have to do with her job title? I'm a vegetarian stripper. Can I write an article too??
A job in the adult industry is just a job folks. It doesn't dictate what kind of person you are, so let's not get all excited that one of us is supposedly celibate. There's about 300,000 strippers in this country alone. I'm pretty sure more than one of us is celibate. And why is anyone supposed to care about that, exactly??
Casey
www.MyDancerDiary.com
wow. i have nothing snarky or silly to say about this. except for the ending.. cop out! i want to know more!
